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Wednesday, April 27, 2005 

What I wrote

I am in the process of moving and during my mad and obsessive packing spree last night I stumbled upon a bunch of journals. I read for awhile, pausing in the land of super ego. Then I found a lone page that did not seem to belong to any journal. I don't remember writing this page but it is clearly my writing. I think I must have thought I was pretty cool.

Jan 20 2000
My gallant love, absorb me.
Saturate in my fantasies.
This metropolis I create for us to live and play in, will not exist without your belief.
We can rearrange the streets and stores. Delete the ground or sky.
Abolish speech. Do away with grief and sorrow.
Perhaps, no city at all.
How about a mountainous labyrinth?
Children will be the most respected deities. War will be a color, not a concept.
If signs existed they would display phrases like "The world is your oyster."
You and I will be monks.
Addiction will be just another word for limitation. Nothing and everything will be acknowledged as one in the same.
Come with me, my king, my love.
Saturate in my dreams
* * * (the little star breaks were actually drawn on the page)

I often ask myself, as that's the only one who will listen; How is it that thought is contained between the the parameters of what is called the brain? Confined in a thought prison designed by it's own fearful and limiting creators. This prison, often called sanity, is chaining the mind perpetually.
* * *

Tuesday, April 26, 2005 

Postmodern Link of the Day

Gizoogle

So you can put any web page in here and gizoogle it for some snoopalicious fun!

Ma Gizoogle

 

Chicken Liver, Passover and Praise 103.9

I have really found it difficult to post recently. This blog has been a nagging "to do list" item in the back no man's land of my mind. Which as you can see in my last post has been causing me difficulties anyway. However, I was inspired by this past Passover weekend.

Since I am one of those Jews that makes defining Judaism a major issue for college professors around the world, I'll save my description of the actual traditional Seder and why it isn't really a religious event if your not a religious Jew.

I will say this though:

This years gathering was one of the most memorable I've attended. Both of my parents choose this year to instruct me on the necessary food preparation, so that I could perform the Seder in the future.

Part of preparation included my dad and I grinding chicken livers in the old fashioned grinders that latch on top of a table and need to be hand cranked. I, of course, can not reveal more or that would give away the secret to the best chopped liver recipe ever. But, I have to say hand cranking chicken liver with my dad for hours was the perfect activity for me the Friday before Passover.

There is so much joy in just showing up for my family.

Later my mother showed me how to make haroset, a classic Passover treat. Also, the best of all time with it's own secret additions. Plus- staying up extra late and giggling.

The kicker is that my Dad turned me on to Praise 103.9, the new (all gospel, all the time) radio station in town. If you have followed my blog you know that I feel most grounded and spritual listening to gospel tunes.

So picture this:
Sudo-Jews cooking for our Seder meal, listening to Baptist style praise music and talking about all of our Seder meals past.

Fantastic.

The next day was full of family and guests, reading the Haggadah, and a bit of tasteful mockery.

I've left the weekend feeling extra connected to those I love, a far cry from the years spent missing Holidays for a trip down to the cop man.

Friday, April 15, 2005 

Reprimand the brain, a poem

Mind you?

yes I mind Cerebrum, that dopamine and serotonin don't play well with others.

of course it bothers me, Left Hemisphere, that you forget how to say thank you and keep a budget in order. You never really did learn how to write proper either. Thank gawd for calculators and spell check,

oh and don't think I have forgotten about you, Righty Hemi, for all those incredible ideas that go no where fast and that painting I never did and that road trip that ended in a wreck,

and gosh Parietal Lobe, have you forgotten how much foot blisters hurt? You sure forgot about the pleasures associated with the G-spot! And what is going on with my aching neck?

and Cerebellum, I don't even know what to say, you have been sleeping on my hand-eye coordination from the beginning, I still drop things when I get nervous and get vertigo on the bus,

and Spinal Cord, are you disconnected or what?

Whatever! I'll just blame it all on Temporal Lobe for making such a fuss.

 

My Tarot

I Am

Which tarot card are you?


For lack of anything to write I turned to I am following my fish for inspitartion. I found this tarot creator. cool.

Friday, April 08, 2005 

Postmodern Link of the Day

The Big Red Button

Thursday, April 07, 2005 

Fragmentation

I found this:

Postmodernism: The following, Fragmentation, was found here
http://www.cultsock.ndirect.co.uk/MUHome/cshtml/index.html

Since the grand metanarratives no longer have validity, since there is a plurality of truths, writers on postmodernity frequently emphasize the fragmentation of modern culture. The grand narratives are replaced by local narratives. The distinction between 'high' and 'low' culture also disappears. The postmodern mood tends to value the local over the universal, and popular over élite culture or high art. Popular culture signs and media images are seen as increasingly dominating our sense of reality. There is no distinction between the simulations of the media and reality:

... the cultural dominance of the mass media is emphasized, where reality and identity is constructed for us by fleeting and illusory stories, whether in advertising, popular music or TV soap operas. So although the mass media shrinks our world because of its ability to transcend space, this gives us no more meaningful a purchase on 'reality' - it simply multiples the number, frequency and impermanence of the accounts of reality we consume. What we 'see' via the media inevitably constitutes a major source of our knowledge in a post-modern world - but what we see and know, and therefore are, is only here and now, and only until another story comes along.

Jones (1992)

The individual human subject (or self) is also seen as fragmented. The unified 'Cartesian self' is abandoned in favour of the decentred self. Seen from this perspective, the revivification of the Enlightenment project attempted by Jürgen Habermas is an impossibility. Habermas envisages the achievement of a consensus achieved by a dialogue between free, rational and equal actors. He is quite clear that 'everyday communication' (kommunikative Alltagspraxis) permits a form of mutual understanding based on claims to validity - and this conceived of as the only alternative to exerting influence on one another by more or less coercive means' (1983: 26) From the post-modernist point of view, these 'claims to validity' of the Enlightenment project would depend on some sort of conception of humanity as a universal subject, which is impossible since even the individual subject is irredeemably fragmented, decentred. Further, there can be no rules, not even rules as to what constitutes rational debate, which apply to all players in all games. Rules can only ever be local and temporary, the 'temporary contract' now so prevalent in industrial relations, which Lyotard sees as emblematic of all our other social relations. The dispute between Habermas and Lyotard is not, I think, merely a passing storm in an academic teacup. 'Incredulity towards metanarratives' has the potential to undermine the very basis of cultural studies. For Habermas the unmasking of metanarratives makes sense only if we preserve at least some sort of standard by which we can explain the corruption of all reasonable standards. Without such a standard, we cannot distinguish between theory and ideology, the clear and the masked. If what cultural studies is about is the rational critique of existing institutions, which is of course central to the Enlightenment project, then cultural studies either collapses or has to go off and be about something else, since there is no rational foundation left for the critique. Of course, this may be seen as a problem fundamental to the Enlightenment project. Seen as the relentless pursuit of the critical method, the Enlightenment project eventually runs into the problem that it attacks truth-claims from the standpoint of other truth-claims which (temporarily at least) are accepted as valid. Those truth-claims in their turn will, however, also be subject to criticism. So where do you look for a set of truth-claims which are immune from such attack, where do you find an 'objectively valid' position from which to practise your critique? Habermas places much emphasis on the natural sciences as an example of a coming to a consensus whose validity is not merely context-dependent. Lyotard, by contrast, sees 'modern' science as in fact typically 'postmodern':

Postmodern science by concerning itself with such things as undecidables, the limits of precise control, conflicts characterized by incomplete information, 'fracta', catastrophes, and pragmatic paradoxes is theorizing its own evolution as discontinuous, catastrophic, nonrectifiable and paradoxical.

Lyotard (1984) : 60

For Habermas this is typical of the irrationality which the postmoderns must necessarily give themselves over to. Their unprincipled pragmatism does not permit reasoned critique. Thus, in his view, the critical rationality which permits the cultural theorist to engage with power, ideology, institutions, social reality is simply abandoned in favour of mere passive conformism. Hence his labeling postmoderns 'neo-conservative'.

It's probably worth mentioning in passing, though, that Enlightenment rationalism has always been accompanied by irrationalism. There is a strongly relativist strain in Montesquieu, one of the founding fathers of the Enlightenment; the French Revolution, often seen conveniently as the starting point of the Enlightenment project, soon celebrated the existence of the Supreme Being; the Romantic movement was in many ways deeply anti-rationalist; surrealism, once the high point of modernism, was counter-rational - and so on. So maybe irrationalism is not so obviously scary.

The postmodernists' emphasis on fragmentation leads many to celebrate place and local identities. Diversity and decentralization are applauded as expressions of local autonomy, as are single-issue political movements such as protesters against a the construction of a local by-pass. Whilst there can be no doubt that there is now a wider range of choices, to the extent that it may appear legitimate to question whether we can speak of 'mass culture' or 'popular culture' in the singular at all, the celebration of diversity may simply overlook the underlying capitalist logic behind the fostering of diversity. Where capitalism once benefited from economies of scale, it now also benefits from 'economies of scope'. A wider range of choices means greater market segmentation and greater market segmentation means greater profit. In the same way as capitalism may be seen as having created market through producing fashion and planned obsolescence, so it may now be seen as creating the apparent diversity of post-modern particularism. localism and eclecticism, now that new modes of production make possible the exploitation of such markets.

Monday, April 04, 2005 

Postmodern Link of the Day

I needed this today. I wanted to share
The Surrealist Compliment Generator

Friday, April 01, 2005 

Synchronicity Part 3

I recognize this post is way overdo. The responses to popstrology were so much fun. Jennsee is the only one that made it out with some dignity.

So, why Synchronicity Three? Why my persistence of this topic? Well, It has been a general theme unfolding since I began blogging two months ago, and it has slowly developed into a frame of mind for me that is extremely positive. I spend every week looking for those areas of my life that seem to indicate a level or two above the earthly realm and seem to more reflect the reality of the kind of energy, karma and spiritual flow of this universe.

I had two e-mails of appreciation arrive in my you've got mail box in the past two weeks.

One was from the one who guides me through my recovery process. For the first time ever I think someone used the word integrity to describe my character. She indicated she had just been thinking about me and then let me know what qualities she saw in me. So, thoughtful.

The second was from a friend thanking several people for being a part of his life. With another e-mail explaining specifically what I have done as a friend that was of value to him. Why don't we do this sort of thing more often?

I had my relationship with two people from across the country broaden and expand, also via e-mail.

The first person, A friend who is described at length several blogs ago. In brief he and I have lived similar lives of addiction over the past ten years with little contact. The last time we have seen each other was during 9th grade. Recently we re-connected via phone and E-mail after not talking for over five years or so. Today, both of us have put our lives back in order. We have connected frequently over the past few weeks in discussion about our life experience.

The second person, my closet girlfriend, whom I met in a halfway house in the darkest part of town four years ago, wrote me via e-mail after months of not having contact. She is another person of the recovery world who has struggled to maintain her ideal life. Being able to hear from her has revived my hope in surviving addiction despite all the odds.

I guess the real Synchronicity here is found in the mystery of human relationships. There is a thread beneath the surface the binds humans to one another. Does love flood in waves like bad luck? The beauty of those who have touched my life and the beauty of that process is on my mind. This week I would like to some how connect human relationships to postmodern theory. Idea's anyone?

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