Seeking

My name is Emily, I am 25 years old and was suffering from severe blog envy until today. I've spent a significant amount of time, maybe 25-30% percent of the past 4 years trying to decide if I am either a hippie-dippy, kind of flaky, artsy, super-liberal filmmaking freak or a label wearing, even-keel, average-liberal research assistant suffering from OCD. I also have a really hard time determining if I am actually Jewish or not and have spent maybe 5 % of my time contemplating Judaism related issues.

I guess something else I plan to explore in my new blog is my musical interests. For as long as I can remember I've been obsessed with gospel music, specifically gospel music about Jesus. Kind of Trippy. I guess my musical tastes are probably what most noticeably distinguish my character from all the other blond-haired, blue-eyed American 25 year olds.

-Did I mention that I am slightly resentful that I have the all-American girl look, yet even with this resentment I tend to play it up.

I guess a few other things that may slip in with my thoughts include:
My experiences as a drug addict (now sober 4 years)
My father's prostate cancer (now in remission 1 year)
My classic romantic's bleeding heart
My confusion about the Higher Power concept
Therapy

I'd appreciate any constructive criticism, as I am new at this!